I have been thinking long and hard about a close friend who has been going through a very rough and stressful time right now.
She is usually a strong and vibrant person who can handle anything. And from the outside looks like she has all her shit together. And recently found out she was pregnant and was very happy to share the news with everyone.
Well the worst of all things happened and she started to bleed, and throughout the day eventually lost the poor little life that was growing inside her.
This brings about some questions that have been racing through my head. Yes even I have periods of deep thought and contemplation.
So why is it when you have a very happy event happen in your life, does the opposite reaction have to happen to even out the "ying and yang" in our lives? Why can't happy things happen over and over? It seems like that is very unfair to have to have this balance in our lives. We deserve more like %80 positive and %20 negative so we can feel like were getting ahead in life.
Is this too much to ask? Is that greedy of us to want to have more positive than negative? Does this have to do with some "Secret" that we don't know about like in the movie with the same title? I don't know about you but I tried to apply the thoughts and ideas in that movie and that didn't help at all. In fact that's when the worst of the stuff in my life happened.(You will have to read way back to older posts to see what that was)
So in this even 50/50,"ying & yang" theory my friend then has to have an amazing bit of good luck coming to her that should last her til she reaches 80 years old. Right? Because one of the worst experiences in our adult lives has to be losing a child.
Which brings me to my last point. I have been trying to think of something to say to her that means that my heart goes out to her and that I understand the pain she is going through. And to express that all needs something more. Something that has a bigger and deeper emphasis on how important it is that she understands I am here along with everyone else to help her through this dark period.
But all I can think of is "sorry". A word that has a simple meaning and doesn't really have much punch or pizazz to it. It is sort of an indifferent word to me that doesn't have the deep meaning that needs to be conveyed. But I guess it has to do for now.
While she is going through this very dark day, I am sure all her friends and family hope she has good health and gets the peace and rest she needs to get through this hard time. I know we are all sending her our best wishes.
Ciao for now
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Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Laptops on your lap
Well yet again I was asked to do a post on a strange new subject. Here it is. Laptops and the effects on your lap.
Well this is gonna be a short one. Get a pillow or a laptop rest for your laptop.
The radiation will make the boys shrivel up and die like the California Raisins. The heat alone can send the crotch temperature so high it will kill the prize micro salmon looking to swim up stream. It seems that when a guy sits his package keeps his legs naturally open which is enough to keep the twig and berries just cool enough to keep the swimmers from dying.So when you put a laptop on a mans lap there isn't an air flow. Then the heat from the laptop will cook the little soldiers. They have also found that prolonged heat from the computer can create a permanent situation down below. So if your scared of the doctor cutting near the marble bag then maybe try and use this technique.
Then again there have been reports of guys trying to do just that and by accident didn't realize that the computer was actually burning their thighs because the computer needs air flow too.
So unless you want dead swimmers in your man jam, Keep the laptop off the family jewels.
Now for women it does not have any effect of the orchid down below. That is according to some of the medical journals I have read through. So the only real danger to women is burning the legs. And that can be helped with one of those computer trays or cooler trays.
Well this is gonna be a short one. Get a pillow or a laptop rest for your laptop.
The radiation will make the boys shrivel up and die like the California Raisins. The heat alone can send the crotch temperature so high it will kill the prize micro salmon looking to swim up stream. It seems that when a guy sits his package keeps his legs naturally open which is enough to keep the twig and berries just cool enough to keep the swimmers from dying.So when you put a laptop on a mans lap there isn't an air flow. Then the heat from the laptop will cook the little soldiers. They have also found that prolonged heat from the computer can create a permanent situation down below. So if your scared of the doctor cutting near the marble bag then maybe try and use this technique.
Then again there have been reports of guys trying to do just that and by accident didn't realize that the computer was actually burning their thighs because the computer needs air flow too.
So unless you want dead swimmers in your man jam, Keep the laptop off the family jewels.
Now for women it does not have any effect of the orchid down below. That is according to some of the medical journals I have read through. So the only real danger to women is burning the legs. And that can be helped with one of those computer trays or cooler trays.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
To Pay Or Not To Pay ?
More and more over the last year and a half I have been hearing from women and their experiences with men who won't pay child support when they divorce. And lately I have been hearing it more frequently. Is this an epidemic of assholes out there? Have they found some kind of loophole that I am not aware of? Not that I wouldn't pay. It is only hurting the kids. Right?
In all separation and eventually divorce agreements both parties agree to certain terms and the government has the amount the spouse has to pay all down in a convenient little pamphlet that was handed to me when I entered the process of separation.
So how do these douche bags get out of paying? Maybe because they weren't really men to begin with and are terrible fathers. They don't see how it can hurt the spouse looking for the money to pay for the necessities of everyday living. Same amount as when they were a couple together but just in one or two lump sums per month.
Ok so I will spell it out for you about why they won't pay from a mans perspective without holding back. Turn off NCIS and put the phone on silent and read with the hope you can understand the guys mindset.
1. He's a Super Douche and makes a lot of money and doesn't want to pay a dime because he spent a shitload of money fighting every point during the divorce and wants to lash back. No matter how many parenting after separation courses he takes this D-bag will deny cash to hurt everyone so they hope they feel the pain he went through during the divorce. He also likes the feeling of being in control of the situation and enjoys the frustration it brings his ex. Also this man won't take the kid/s when he's supposed to.
2. He's a Tres Douche and makes a good living and pays a little here and a little there. This sort has a little bit of a conscience about his kids and wants to see them. He makes up stories about his work and the amount he makes and makes a big deal about all the bills he has to pay. He also doesn't want his parents and siblings think he's a douche so he continues the story to them. He may need some legal persuasion from time to time but he will pay up when he can. P.S. he will always hide money from you and try to get out of payments from time to time. He won't change. He will take the kid/s when it fits his work schedule.
3. This is your average D-bag. He will pay but not on time ever and your continually chasing after him. This is because he like the attention from his ex and every time he talks or texts her he still feels like he's a part of her life. This guy can't let go and will be a challenge to get any peace with him. RESTRAINING ORDER!
So I hope you got a touch of insight into the brain of the many stages of Douche-dome.
Ciao for Now
In all separation and eventually divorce agreements both parties agree to certain terms and the government has the amount the spouse has to pay all down in a convenient little pamphlet that was handed to me when I entered the process of separation.
So how do these douche bags get out of paying? Maybe because they weren't really men to begin with and are terrible fathers. They don't see how it can hurt the spouse looking for the money to pay for the necessities of everyday living. Same amount as when they were a couple together but just in one or two lump sums per month.
Ok so I will spell it out for you about why they won't pay from a mans perspective without holding back. Turn off NCIS and put the phone on silent and read with the hope you can understand the guys mindset.
1. He's a Super Douche and makes a lot of money and doesn't want to pay a dime because he spent a shitload of money fighting every point during the divorce and wants to lash back. No matter how many parenting after separation courses he takes this D-bag will deny cash to hurt everyone so they hope they feel the pain he went through during the divorce. He also likes the feeling of being in control of the situation and enjoys the frustration it brings his ex. Also this man won't take the kid/s when he's supposed to.
2. He's a Tres Douche and makes a good living and pays a little here and a little there. This sort has a little bit of a conscience about his kids and wants to see them. He makes up stories about his work and the amount he makes and makes a big deal about all the bills he has to pay. He also doesn't want his parents and siblings think he's a douche so he continues the story to them. He may need some legal persuasion from time to time but he will pay up when he can. P.S. he will always hide money from you and try to get out of payments from time to time. He won't change. He will take the kid/s when it fits his work schedule.
3. This is your average D-bag. He will pay but not on time ever and your continually chasing after him. This is because he like the attention from his ex and every time he talks or texts her he still feels like he's a part of her life. This guy can't let go and will be a challenge to get any peace with him. RESTRAINING ORDER!
So I hope you got a touch of insight into the brain of the many stages of Douche-dome.
Ciao for Now
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
SEX RANT !
So what kind of sexual person are you? And what does your flavor and appetite say about you? Is it even important to you anymore?
Well lets talk about the first topic shall we. Sex and what type of sexual person are you? Are you the one who likes to hold hands and maybe give a peck on the lips while walking in the park? Or are you the type to tell that partner your walking with how fun it would be to come back and have sex on the park bench?
We all get caught up in what kind of sexual person we are and what our comfort levels are when it comes to it. To talk about having sex on the bench at night in the park doesn't make you weird or different from everyone else just makes you adventurous. Trying to keep the spice of the relationship going while trying different things. Good on ya because he/she might be really into it. Also if he/she wants to do that stuff you might be in with a super freak that will make all your dirty little thoughts come true. Or make them want to run right out into traffic. You have to be the judge.
If your the type who can only peck the person your with on the lips in public your alright and there is nothing wrong with you either. There are a lot of people who would rather be sexual dynamo's in the bedroom and be reserved in the public eye. They are the ones people say "He/she was such a quiet person". Serial killer quiet. But when your alone with the person they turn into the porn king/queen that likes to do stuff that would make Larry Flint blush. Stuff in your mind that might actually make you go blind.
So how does this relate to your flavor. I have heard the term "vanilla" meaning straight up intercourse. So what do the other flavors represent? Well lets make it up as we go. So chocolate could mean the obvious and having sex with a brown or black person. Then there is strawberry. So maybe that means being with a ginger person. Either that or having sex during a menstrual cycle. And what about blueberry? Well that could mean that your having sex while watching the Smurfs or with a smurf.
It doesn't matter what flavor you are as long as your not hurting anyone. Unless they ask for that. But really we don't have to put these labels on it and just have fun with the one we can relate to the most and the best fit mentally and physically.
Ciao for now
Well lets talk about the first topic shall we. Sex and what type of sexual person are you? Are you the one who likes to hold hands and maybe give a peck on the lips while walking in the park? Or are you the type to tell that partner your walking with how fun it would be to come back and have sex on the park bench?
We all get caught up in what kind of sexual person we are and what our comfort levels are when it comes to it. To talk about having sex on the bench at night in the park doesn't make you weird or different from everyone else just makes you adventurous. Trying to keep the spice of the relationship going while trying different things. Good on ya because he/she might be really into it. Also if he/she wants to do that stuff you might be in with a super freak that will make all your dirty little thoughts come true. Or make them want to run right out into traffic. You have to be the judge.
If your the type who can only peck the person your with on the lips in public your alright and there is nothing wrong with you either. There are a lot of people who would rather be sexual dynamo's in the bedroom and be reserved in the public eye. They are the ones people say "He/she was such a quiet person". Serial killer quiet. But when your alone with the person they turn into the porn king/queen that likes to do stuff that would make Larry Flint blush. Stuff in your mind that might actually make you go blind.
So how does this relate to your flavor. I have heard the term "vanilla" meaning straight up intercourse. So what do the other flavors represent? Well lets make it up as we go. So chocolate could mean the obvious and having sex with a brown or black person. Then there is strawberry. So maybe that means being with a ginger person. Either that or having sex during a menstrual cycle. And what about blueberry? Well that could mean that your having sex while watching the Smurfs or with a smurf.
It doesn't matter what flavor you are as long as your not hurting anyone. Unless they ask for that. But really we don't have to put these labels on it and just have fun with the one we can relate to the most and the best fit mentally and physically.
Ciao for now
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Technology
Well this week has been a cluster trying to get my computer back online to post blogs.
Just when I thought I had it all figured out there were roadblocks everywhere.So here is what happened.
So my friend sent me the new Microsoft Windows 7 professional and I installed it and thought that was good. I backed everything up and it all worked perfectly. So I thought.
First problem is my friend also sent me the new CS5 creative suite for my video editing at home for the commercials and everything I need to do for extra work. It is truly an amazing package with ten programs including Photoshop 5, Premiere Pro 5, and After Effects 5. Then seven other programs I don't think I will ever use but good to have and might need them in the future.
Well the install went perfectly. Where is the problem you ask? Well when I installed it all but two programs installed. Of course they were the ones I needed. It turns out I was running my windows at a 32 bit and for a home system that is just fine. But the editing program and after effects needs to run on a 64 bit system. ARG!
There is the problem. I tried to install the 64 bit windows 7 and the problems start there. Over and over I got error messages saying I couldn't install it because I my operating system was already at 32 bit and it couldn't load it in. Well duh! That's why I was trying to make it a 64 bit. Work with me here. Obviously this box with microchips didn't realize what the hell I was trying to do. Over and over again I tried everything my limited knowledge of technical stuff will allow. This stupid box wasn't getting it. This was for it's own good and it was resisting the knowledge upgrade. Like an idiot I tried over 2 hours to get this stupid thing to accept it's fate for being faster and more intelligent. Like a moron that won't accept the knowledge to make him a genius and run as fast as Ben Johnson on steroids. And off we go to see the tech friend of mine to get it to work.
Sounds easy eh? Well of course it does. Until you factor into it that I live in Calgary. Yup as every Stampede time there are the odd weather variances in the area. So time to travel about twenty kilometers up to the north east to visit my tech friend. At this particular time the skies decided to open up and the rain started. Then the wind picked up. Then the wrath of god descended from the heavens and created complete chaos for southern Alberta. We got rain and lightning and tennis ball sized hail in some ares of the city. The seven horsemen of the apocalypse would have been impressed.
After my thirty minute drive through the heavenly downpour I arrived to the house. At this time the storm reach my destination. And yes I was trapped in my truck with an electrical appliance that doesn't do well with water and or hail plummeting from the sky at the speed of paint balls.So I had to wait for fifteen minutes to enjoy the heavenly wrath upon the wicked and unclean.
I eventually made it out and into the house and we proceeded to the work bench. It took all of two seconds for him to figure it out. FRACK! If I knew it was as easy as starting up the computer with the 64 bit disk in the hard drive I would have done it and saved the $80 and done all the upgrades myself.
So when I got back home everything worked great and life goes on.
When did our lives get so complicated we can't see the easiest solutions for the most complicated situations? Well this is what we should take with us as the life lesson to get through the tough decisions in our lives.K.I.S.S. Or keep it simple stupid. The simplest solutions are right in front of your face to see. Take the blinders off and see it.
Ciao for now.
Just when I thought I had it all figured out there were roadblocks everywhere.So here is what happened.
So my friend sent me the new Microsoft Windows 7 professional and I installed it and thought that was good. I backed everything up and it all worked perfectly. So I thought.
First problem is my friend also sent me the new CS5 creative suite for my video editing at home for the commercials and everything I need to do for extra work. It is truly an amazing package with ten programs including Photoshop 5, Premiere Pro 5, and After Effects 5. Then seven other programs I don't think I will ever use but good to have and might need them in the future.
Well the install went perfectly. Where is the problem you ask? Well when I installed it all but two programs installed. Of course they were the ones I needed. It turns out I was running my windows at a 32 bit and for a home system that is just fine. But the editing program and after effects needs to run on a 64 bit system. ARG!
There is the problem. I tried to install the 64 bit windows 7 and the problems start there. Over and over I got error messages saying I couldn't install it because I my operating system was already at 32 bit and it couldn't load it in. Well duh! That's why I was trying to make it a 64 bit. Work with me here. Obviously this box with microchips didn't realize what the hell I was trying to do. Over and over again I tried everything my limited knowledge of technical stuff will allow. This stupid box wasn't getting it. This was for it's own good and it was resisting the knowledge upgrade. Like an idiot I tried over 2 hours to get this stupid thing to accept it's fate for being faster and more intelligent. Like a moron that won't accept the knowledge to make him a genius and run as fast as Ben Johnson on steroids. And off we go to see the tech friend of mine to get it to work.
Sounds easy eh? Well of course it does. Until you factor into it that I live in Calgary. Yup as every Stampede time there are the odd weather variances in the area. So time to travel about twenty kilometers up to the north east to visit my tech friend. At this particular time the skies decided to open up and the rain started. Then the wind picked up. Then the wrath of god descended from the heavens and created complete chaos for southern Alberta. We got rain and lightning and tennis ball sized hail in some ares of the city. The seven horsemen of the apocalypse would have been impressed.
After my thirty minute drive through the heavenly downpour I arrived to the house. At this time the storm reach my destination. And yes I was trapped in my truck with an electrical appliance that doesn't do well with water and or hail plummeting from the sky at the speed of paint balls.So I had to wait for fifteen minutes to enjoy the heavenly wrath upon the wicked and unclean.
I eventually made it out and into the house and we proceeded to the work bench. It took all of two seconds for him to figure it out. FRACK! If I knew it was as easy as starting up the computer with the 64 bit disk in the hard drive I would have done it and saved the $80 and done all the upgrades myself.
So when I got back home everything worked great and life goes on.
When did our lives get so complicated we can't see the easiest solutions for the most complicated situations? Well this is what we should take with us as the life lesson to get through the tough decisions in our lives.K.I.S.S. Or keep it simple stupid. The simplest solutions are right in front of your face to see. Take the blinders off and see it.
Ciao for now.
Friday, July 2, 2010
It's Your Say!
I have been deciding lately what People want to hear. There has been issues with some that say I shouldn't be candid and diary like in the blogs. Some say the posts are personal and they feel uncomfortable reading the blog.
What do you think? I want to know how the past posts make you feel and does it help to communicate these collection of thoughts?
Do you have anything in particular that you would like to read about if you don't want to read personal topics?
This is supposed to be a helpful blog and one of sharing experiences with each other and maybe it can help someone out there that may be going through anything similar that I have written about in the past.
It is hard to decide if this blog is helping people or not. That's why I am asking for your help. Should I just abandon this blog all together and try something else?
Make a comment and tell me what you think.
Ciao for now
What do you think? I want to know how the past posts make you feel and does it help to communicate these collection of thoughts?
Do you have anything in particular that you would like to read about if you don't want to read personal topics?
This is supposed to be a helpful blog and one of sharing experiences with each other and maybe it can help someone out there that may be going through anything similar that I have written about in the past.
It is hard to decide if this blog is helping people or not. That's why I am asking for your help. Should I just abandon this blog all together and try something else?
Make a comment and tell me what you think.
Ciao for now
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I Took a Break to Think!
So the question has arisen about how brutally honest I have been on the blog and that it seems that I am not over a bunch of issues that I have written about. Well I have taken a bit of time and thought about that very hard for a few days.
Well one the one hand if I am totally honest about my experiences then someone else can learn about what I went through and maybe learn something from it. Then you the reader can also comment on it and then it becomes a sharing experience that more points of view can completely make sense of it. Does that sound confusing? It does when I write it. But some how makes logical sense to do it. It's almost like an idiots guide of what not to do or do in life. Take it in and learn from it.
Then there is the other side of the page where you shouldn't write about such things for it may come back to bite me in the ass. Things about relationships and betrayal and everything else is deeply personal and then people won't look at me the same way and feel sorry for me that I have had a rough year or week.
And then there is the shock value about the subjects I write about as well. Some people made comments that what they read makes them feel uncomfortable and that it's like reading a diary. Well yes it is. This is a sharing diary that we all can participate in. And yes some of the subjects are very personal and are raw. But if we can't talk about it then how do we learn from it?
I guess it all comes down to your comfort level and what you are willing to read or share to help others to experience the life lessons we all go through. If you can watch the Bachelorette or Big Brother on tv which is very voyeuristic then you should be able to read this blog and hopefully take something positive away from it.
Ciao for now
Well one the one hand if I am totally honest about my experiences then someone else can learn about what I went through and maybe learn something from it. Then you the reader can also comment on it and then it becomes a sharing experience that more points of view can completely make sense of it. Does that sound confusing? It does when I write it. But some how makes logical sense to do it. It's almost like an idiots guide of what not to do or do in life. Take it in and learn from it.
Then there is the other side of the page where you shouldn't write about such things for it may come back to bite me in the ass. Things about relationships and betrayal and everything else is deeply personal and then people won't look at me the same way and feel sorry for me that I have had a rough year or week.
And then there is the shock value about the subjects I write about as well. Some people made comments that what they read makes them feel uncomfortable and that it's like reading a diary. Well yes it is. This is a sharing diary that we all can participate in. And yes some of the subjects are very personal and are raw. But if we can't talk about it then how do we learn from it?
I guess it all comes down to your comfort level and what you are willing to read or share to help others to experience the life lessons we all go through. If you can watch the Bachelorette or Big Brother on tv which is very voyeuristic then you should be able to read this blog and hopefully take something positive away from it.
Ciao for now
Monday, June 7, 2010
Dating
Ok so I have been trying dating for a while now and have tried different avenues to go about it. There is dating from your pool of friends.(Not a good idea). Dating from Plenty of Fish or any other dating web site. Or there is always the blind date.
Blind dates. Aren't they fun. It all starts off with someone saying to you "Hey your single right? (THANKS FOR REMINDING ME!)I have the perfect person for you. Wanna meet HIM\HER?" Then if your respect them or their judgement you eventually say yes. Then there is the self questioning that goes along with it. "Is she pretty?" " What if he's an ass?" " Where is the nearest exit by the washroom?". All the things that make us what we are as humans. You know, Crazy. Well at least crazy to our ex's.
Second line of dating which I don't think is a smart way to date is amongst the people you know. UNLESS you know that person has been into you for a while and you know you can make it work or at least if it doesn't still be friends. Otherwise you have messed up a business relationship or friendship. Or even friend of a friendship. Anyway you slice it, if you try this route your taking a big risk at messing something up and maybe your social life for a while.
On the other hand it is a safer way to date because most often you already know the person. Either know them a little or a lot. My recommendation here is to take it slow and don't jump right into bed the first night or even the fifth night. Enjoy each others company and see how much of the relationship is based on sexual urges and how much is on actually wanting to spend time with that person. If it's the first urge then i say "get out now". Don't go to far and mess things up so you will always feel awkward around that person when they are around.
Third option is the web dating. Yes this can be a good way to meet people. But like a Walmart, you have to sort through the bad stuff to see the one or two gems awaiting you there. Yes go on and see what's outside you group of friends or acquaintances. This gets you out there and people can meet you for tea or coffee, or even go out for a lunch date or drinks. Everything is totally up to you and how fast you wanna take it.
Me I have tried all three. Yup I did. Everyone knows it is hard out there. And everyone has their own expectations of what they expect from a date. I find it hard to know what to do that is proper now a days. Do I pay for everything like a gentleman? Go split the bill because you want them to know you respect their individuality? Go straight for the dinner or just drinks the first time? It's a myriad of possibilities. And you don't want to ask too many questions so not to freak the other person out.
What do you think? I am like you and trying to just get by and preying I am not going to make a fool out of myself in this dating world. Step by step this process may get easier.
Well that's my ramblings for tonight. I am exhausted writing this so it probably makes less sense than usual.
Ciao for now
Blind dates. Aren't they fun. It all starts off with someone saying to you "Hey your single right? (THANKS FOR REMINDING ME!)I have the perfect person for you. Wanna meet HIM\HER?" Then if your respect them or their judgement you eventually say yes. Then there is the self questioning that goes along with it. "Is she pretty?" " What if he's an ass?" " Where is the nearest exit by the washroom?". All the things that make us what we are as humans. You know, Crazy. Well at least crazy to our ex's.
Second line of dating which I don't think is a smart way to date is amongst the people you know. UNLESS you know that person has been into you for a while and you know you can make it work or at least if it doesn't still be friends. Otherwise you have messed up a business relationship or friendship. Or even friend of a friendship. Anyway you slice it, if you try this route your taking a big risk at messing something up and maybe your social life for a while.
On the other hand it is a safer way to date because most often you already know the person. Either know them a little or a lot. My recommendation here is to take it slow and don't jump right into bed the first night or even the fifth night. Enjoy each others company and see how much of the relationship is based on sexual urges and how much is on actually wanting to spend time with that person. If it's the first urge then i say "get out now". Don't go to far and mess things up so you will always feel awkward around that person when they are around.
Third option is the web dating. Yes this can be a good way to meet people. But like a Walmart, you have to sort through the bad stuff to see the one or two gems awaiting you there. Yes go on and see what's outside you group of friends or acquaintances. This gets you out there and people can meet you for tea or coffee, or even go out for a lunch date or drinks. Everything is totally up to you and how fast you wanna take it.
Me I have tried all three. Yup I did. Everyone knows it is hard out there. And everyone has their own expectations of what they expect from a date. I find it hard to know what to do that is proper now a days. Do I pay for everything like a gentleman? Go split the bill because you want them to know you respect their individuality? Go straight for the dinner or just drinks the first time? It's a myriad of possibilities. And you don't want to ask too many questions so not to freak the other person out.
What do you think? I am like you and trying to just get by and preying I am not going to make a fool out of myself in this dating world. Step by step this process may get easier.
Well that's my ramblings for tonight. I am exhausted writing this so it probably makes less sense than usual.
Ciao for now
Thursday, June 3, 2010
When Is Enough Just Enough
OK this is a tough story to tell but I will try and do it justice.
Today I was doing the follow up story about an elderly couple who had gone missing last Thursday after a 91st birthday party. So a full week has gone by and nobody had heard from them or knew where they were. The police were searching all over the place and with their helicopter and everything.
Then early at 7am ish we got a report that the couples car was found and so was some unidentified bodies a few kilometers away. Remember the cops have to inform the next of kin before they identify the bodies to the press.
Off we go. In the truck and driving forty kilometers west of Water Valley.. While were getting close to the destination the road turns into a gravel road about four lanes in some places and well maintained for a gravel road. We then came to an immediate stop where the turn off to the site where the car was located. The road we were on went well into the west. Then we turned down the side strip of a road. It was as wide as the truck and in very rough shape and huge puddles and a sheer drop off on the drivers side when going into the bush. The police said the car went seven kilometers into this mess. In spots the truck I was driving only went ten kms because of the ruts and puddles. They were driving an older sedan which would have been terrible bumpy.
In my mind I can't see the reasoning behind ever taking a car this route unless there was a specific reason to do so. It was a one way ticket.
They found the bodies three kms from the vehicle. This makes it all very confusing to some why they would drive that route. But brings into question of what if?
What if they just went for their final drive together into the deep heart of the woods to finish off their lives together. Let me make this clear right now that the examination to this date of writing has not been released yet to the media and from here on out is just speculation.
So my theory is that they had the party. (they didn't clean up anything from the party)And when everyone left they got into their car and just drove as far out into the woods as they could. They spent the night sitting and talking in the car until the gas ran out. And then they took some medication and walked away from the car. And eventually they both dropped. (They were found thirty meters away from each other). This may have been planned for them to be eventually be dragged off by an animal and never seen again by their families. Which may be because they didn't want to live in pain and they didn't want to be a burdon to their families.
I know it's too early to speculate but that is my theory.
So is it right to give those the choice to take their own lives if their suffering greatly outweighs the alternative?
Tough discussion.
That's it for me
Ciao for now
Today I was doing the follow up story about an elderly couple who had gone missing last Thursday after a 91st birthday party. So a full week has gone by and nobody had heard from them or knew where they were. The police were searching all over the place and with their helicopter and everything.
Then early at 7am ish we got a report that the couples car was found and so was some unidentified bodies a few kilometers away. Remember the cops have to inform the next of kin before they identify the bodies to the press.
Off we go. In the truck and driving forty kilometers west of Water Valley.. While were getting close to the destination the road turns into a gravel road about four lanes in some places and well maintained for a gravel road. We then came to an immediate stop where the turn off to the site where the car was located. The road we were on went well into the west. Then we turned down the side strip of a road. It was as wide as the truck and in very rough shape and huge puddles and a sheer drop off on the drivers side when going into the bush. The police said the car went seven kilometers into this mess. In spots the truck I was driving only went ten kms because of the ruts and puddles. They were driving an older sedan which would have been terrible bumpy.
In my mind I can't see the reasoning behind ever taking a car this route unless there was a specific reason to do so. It was a one way ticket.
They found the bodies three kms from the vehicle. This makes it all very confusing to some why they would drive that route. But brings into question of what if?
What if they just went for their final drive together into the deep heart of the woods to finish off their lives together. Let me make this clear right now that the examination to this date of writing has not been released yet to the media and from here on out is just speculation.
So my theory is that they had the party. (they didn't clean up anything from the party)And when everyone left they got into their car and just drove as far out into the woods as they could. They spent the night sitting and talking in the car until the gas ran out. And then they took some medication and walked away from the car. And eventually they both dropped. (They were found thirty meters away from each other). This may have been planned for them to be eventually be dragged off by an animal and never seen again by their families. Which may be because they didn't want to live in pain and they didn't want to be a burdon to their families.
I know it's too early to speculate but that is my theory.
So is it right to give those the choice to take their own lives if their suffering greatly outweighs the alternative?
Tough discussion.
That's it for me
Ciao for now
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Very Confused
So I have told you about the past year but I did leave one personal item out. Yes it is a woman. This particular person I won't name because she is really special to me. So lets start at the beginning.
It was after my split with my ex that I found myself aware that this woman liked me. With all my baggage and all. So I decided to pursue it. Why not? She is gorgeous and an incredible person on the inside.
So we carried on and had a great time with everything we did. We had it great. Unfortunately she has been sick and getting sicker for the last three years. The doctors don't know what it is and they keep doing tests after tests.
Well things got complicated with the ex and she asked me to try and make amends and try our marriage once again. This was an almost impossible decision. Lose lose for me it seemed. If I continued with the mystery woman I would lose the chance to fix my marriage. If I went with my ex wife I would lose someone I also loved very much. Yes believe it or not you can love two women at the same time. It's crazy.
This was a particularly bad time for the other woman. She was in the hospital and in bad shape and in constant pain. She looked bad and just wanted all the pain to go away. In any way possible.
So on a trip to visit her in the hospital it all came to a head. I walked into her room and she had a lot of tubes and breathing stuff on. She looked very tired and in pain. I was at her bedside when she brought up that we should part ways. This was very heartbreaking to me and I didn't know the reason why she was saying all this. Was it so I didn't have to see her like this? Or some other reason? She knew my feelings for her and in her state and mine, I didn't know quite what to do. I held her hand and kissed it and said my goodbye and left. It was terribly hard. I didn't want to cause her anymore pain that I could see on her face. Both physical or mental. On the way to the car I was an emotional wreck. and wanted to run back up and make her change her mind. But I didn't have to words or mindset to figure out how to do that.
Onward we flash through time where my ex just wanted to use me to get some more money while she screwed around some more with other men. This time we didn't do anything until I was sure all was going to be alright with us. Then I found out what she was doing and walked away.
Then forward all the way to today. The other mystery woman and I have continued to be friends and we express our love for one another through texts and when we meet. I do still love her and she makes me feel alive and loved back.
So she is still sick and going for tests and is fighting the mystery illness. And she has an operation very soon to help some of her symptoms. But she has been very sick and barely able to work. Which brings me to today.
She asked me if I could drive her home because she is sick and I was done work so I obliged. We made small talk there and when we reached her house she turned to me and said we will have an important talk before she goes into surgery. Then I was caught off guard by this and took my sunglasses off and lost all words to say. All I could manage to say was yes and go get some sleep and get better. She went inside and I drove off.
What the hell does that mean? We need to have a talk? This evokes all my emotions and makes me wonder what to do or what it's about.
Do I want her back? Yes. Does she want me back? I don't know. Could it be because she wants to say something very important before she goes into surgery just in case something happens? All these and more questions come to mind as time slips by. And I am sure as days go by the mystery is going to become unbearable and hopes of her wanting me back will inevitably be growing in my mind.
So as I close this chapter of the blog I am still questioning about what may happen with this talk and why now? I do love her and always will. But I guess this means the answer to eight months of wondering will come to an end.
I know this may raise many questions about what I did and what she did will come to mind. It has been going through mine from the time I left the hospital. Generalities are needed in this particular blog for the both of us. But I will continue with the story and let you know in the future what happens.
Ciao for now
It was after my split with my ex that I found myself aware that this woman liked me. With all my baggage and all. So I decided to pursue it. Why not? She is gorgeous and an incredible person on the inside.
So we carried on and had a great time with everything we did. We had it great. Unfortunately she has been sick and getting sicker for the last three years. The doctors don't know what it is and they keep doing tests after tests.
Well things got complicated with the ex and she asked me to try and make amends and try our marriage once again. This was an almost impossible decision. Lose lose for me it seemed. If I continued with the mystery woman I would lose the chance to fix my marriage. If I went with my ex wife I would lose someone I also loved very much. Yes believe it or not you can love two women at the same time. It's crazy.
This was a particularly bad time for the other woman. She was in the hospital and in bad shape and in constant pain. She looked bad and just wanted all the pain to go away. In any way possible.
So on a trip to visit her in the hospital it all came to a head. I walked into her room and she had a lot of tubes and breathing stuff on. She looked very tired and in pain. I was at her bedside when she brought up that we should part ways. This was very heartbreaking to me and I didn't know the reason why she was saying all this. Was it so I didn't have to see her like this? Or some other reason? She knew my feelings for her and in her state and mine, I didn't know quite what to do. I held her hand and kissed it and said my goodbye and left. It was terribly hard. I didn't want to cause her anymore pain that I could see on her face. Both physical or mental. On the way to the car I was an emotional wreck. and wanted to run back up and make her change her mind. But I didn't have to words or mindset to figure out how to do that.
Onward we flash through time where my ex just wanted to use me to get some more money while she screwed around some more with other men. This time we didn't do anything until I was sure all was going to be alright with us. Then I found out what she was doing and walked away.
Then forward all the way to today. The other mystery woman and I have continued to be friends and we express our love for one another through texts and when we meet. I do still love her and she makes me feel alive and loved back.
So she is still sick and going for tests and is fighting the mystery illness. And she has an operation very soon to help some of her symptoms. But she has been very sick and barely able to work. Which brings me to today.
She asked me if I could drive her home because she is sick and I was done work so I obliged. We made small talk there and when we reached her house she turned to me and said we will have an important talk before she goes into surgery. Then I was caught off guard by this and took my sunglasses off and lost all words to say. All I could manage to say was yes and go get some sleep and get better. She went inside and I drove off.
What the hell does that mean? We need to have a talk? This evokes all my emotions and makes me wonder what to do or what it's about.
Do I want her back? Yes. Does she want me back? I don't know. Could it be because she wants to say something very important before she goes into surgery just in case something happens? All these and more questions come to mind as time slips by. And I am sure as days go by the mystery is going to become unbearable and hopes of her wanting me back will inevitably be growing in my mind.
So as I close this chapter of the blog I am still questioning about what may happen with this talk and why now? I do love her and always will. But I guess this means the answer to eight months of wondering will come to an end.
I know this may raise many questions about what I did and what she did will come to mind. It has been going through mine from the time I left the hospital. Generalities are needed in this particular blog for the both of us. But I will continue with the story and let you know in the future what happens.
Ciao for now
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