Love, Life, and Passion

So yes a lot has happened since my last blog post a very long time ago. Love, life, and passion. Wow just like in the title. Bwahahahaha.

So whats first? Right the "L" word LOVE. Yes I have love in my life. For my kids who live a very far distance from me. And for special people in my life who have seen me through some of the tough times in the past few years. And one very special person who has been there through almost all of the same crap I have. But this person has experienced more and has had more patience than I have ever had.

Whats next ? Right LIFE. So since last time I have written something personal I have tried to get out of my regular routine and try different things to get back into the swing of things. I have found it very difficult and still feel out of sorts to getting out and meeting people.

Lastly there's PASSION. Well I feel I have lost passion since the divorce for a bunch of things. My job some days. My side business which is similar to my everyday job. The ability to get back into the flow of things.

 I feel out of sorts and like I stand out. It seems less than at the beginning of my divorce but there are still some feelings there. Less of a feeling of people staring at me when eating alone at a restaurant. Or standing alone watching a band at a music jam. And other social gatherings.

I do know I have a passion for something I cannot admit publicly yet. Its a very secretive thing that I would love to scream out loud and tell everyone, but not right now. I have to let the passion grow and enjoy the ride. 

So where am I in my life? Right where I am supposed to be......for now.

Ciao for now

Why have I Stopped Writting for a While

Since my last post has been over a year ago all of the above have taken my interest away from writing. A little bit of me was not sure about my writing and I am still a little leery about sharing my ramblings. Especially with so many bloggers out there who make this their passion and truly make a mark in the blogging world.

 Life is a very interesting thing with many distractions. Work, play, poker, relationships, and whatever else takes your mind off of reality for a while. I have done all of these and still haven't found my comfy place in the world of the divorced men's group in this city. So what's a guy to do to feel their worth and live the best they can within the city? This is where you can speak up now.

I have been thinking too much about where my future lies lately though. From an outside perspective there are many different possibilities I could look into to change my future. But right now I need to be here and see this path I am on right now through until I know I am at a dead end.

 Will I be back to blogging? Yes. Frequently? No. So bear with me because I am a radically infrequent blogger. Maybe next time something a little more personal or funny. I just have to get back into the swing of all this again. Ciao for now